Back to Campus

In college I was pretty much and introvert. I had my group of friends who either didn't go to college or lived off campus (as did I). But while on campus I mostly kept to myself until the last 2 years when my courses became more intense and had less students in them. I enjoyed my time as a college student, drinking lattes and "smoking" cloves (I was such a faker, lol. I loved the smell but hated smoking, so I just walked around with a lit clove). Since I lived at home (30 min away) I spent a lot of time between classes at the library reading to myself or doing homework. I didn't bother people and they didn't bother me. I didn't like college kids. They were obnoxious, self-centered, and only there to party (in my opinion). I wasn't exactly a loner, I just didn't care for the typical college kids on campus. I preferred my friends who were a bit more "real."

Last night I visited my old college campus for a concert. Waiting in line with my husband, worrying about my baby at home with Nana and Papa, I realized that I indeed missed college! Watching the girls roam around in packs reminded me of my old girlfriends, now all married with children. We still keep in touch, but it's not the same as back in the day when we'd hang out at a friends apartment or at the bars. We were young and carefree and now I get it! Those college kids that used to annoy me were just living it up before they got old, lol. I had fun during my college days, I really did. I just realize now that I could have had so much more fun!

I could have lived on campus and met a ton of interesting people. I could have taken classes in areas that would have opened me up to an entirely different world; given me a completely different perspective on things. I could have been a part of a community of peers who wanted to have fun, learn, and prepare for life as an adult member of society all at the same time. I could have traveled all over the world.

I could have. But I didn't. And I'm not upset that I didn't, because if I did, my life would not be what it is now. I may not have met my husband, I may not have the wonderful baby I have now. And I certainly wouldn't have the wonderful friends I've made along the way (those with the babies are so special to me right now, especially!). So, If I could go back and change my college years, would I? Yes, I would like to have tried a little harder to be a part of the college community. And no, because I'm happy with my life as it is.